“u up? send nudes? i'm sorry for getting drunk and kissing that girl in front of you...”
I have realized more recently that the boys I let into my life, are quite literally the worst. I mean okay, a rare few are not all that bad, but most of them are actually equivalent to the 3 week old moldy pizza your roommate left in the fridge. For example, hey don’t tell me you love me and then never talk to me, just an example, not that that would actually happen ha ha (Quinton). But for real, I always end up choosing the ones who ghost, or the ones who have deep rooted daddy issues, the ones who “hit it and quit it”, the ones who quite literally hookup with one of your friends and then apologizes through tears, the ones who get too drunk at a party and yell at you because you don’t want to have sex with them, and then the ones who text you saying “oh shit we have scabies at my apartment, did you give it to me??” then never talks to you again… First of all DO NOT assume I gave you this weird ass bugs life wannabe nasty ass bed situation, because I did not, how rude of you to even ask. Second of all who tf gets scabies these days?? I thought for two seconds it was that disease that pirates get, had a lil chuckle to myself, but then thought it was an std and almost cried, then realized what it actually was, and basically I am no longer upset he stopped talking to me to say the least. This may sound like movies or classic examples, but I kid you not these “men” or should I say, boys, exist, and have stared blankly into my face, claiming “I care about you more than you know”, all before disappearing into thin air, or ignoring me when I see them at a bar with another girl. Is my taste in men that horrible? Do I only attract subpar people? Do I scream “If you are mean, emotionally unavailable, and love to treat the women in your life like scum” then here I am? I get a few here and there that are actually somewhat kind, but then I realize that with every good “deed” they do, comes a few bad ones right on top of it. And by good deed I mean the absolute bare minimum that these guys will do, like tell you where the bathroom is before passing out after sex, or NOT tell you that your boobs are too small, the ones who call you an uber home or walk you out when you leave so you don’t have to awkwardly walk into their roommates bedroom. These things though, are incredibly small ~achievements~ and shouldn’t be looked at as anything more than being a decent human being. I bet these guys are patting themselves on the damn back after every time they throw a towel at you after they told you that “they really can’t finish with a condom” or when they remember your name and not call you Kaitlyn when your name is fucking TESSA, not even remotely close to Kaitlin??? They probably think they are the damn sweetest thing on this planet, and deserve a gold medal for their acts of pure kindness and morality. NOPE. These acts are ones that should just naturally happen. The guy that calls me an uber home, ends up only texting me after midnight, for sex, absolutely no cuddling, and refuses to text me back if I text him first. The guy who gets me a towel, will not even try to make me cum but has the nerve to ask me to stick a finger up his ass???? The guy who actually remembered my name, first physically pushed my head down but then wouldn’t kiss me after I gave him a blow job ?? And last but not least, the guy who told me he loved me, will text me every few months saying he misses me, but pretends I don’t exist every other day of the week. I guess what I am wondering is, is it my type that royally and completely sucks? Or is it just guys in general?
