summer love

i am afraid

absolutely terrified

of you

and of this

of the moment when i let go

i want to

but i’m scared

scared to give it all to you

to fall in love again

and let you in

every time someone has said hello

they ended up saying goodbye

and i know you will too

we sit there and tell each other secrets

things that no one else knows

things i haven’t said in so long

i feel it all in my chest

and i want to fall

i want you to be there when i do

so you can catch me

but i can’t be sure that you will

the second i let go

after holding on for so long and so tightly

i will fall and fall

faster now

and what if you’re not there?

what if all of this was just another game?

another chase.

and you let go as i jump into your arms

i am terrified

of loving you

but mostly i am terrified of losing

of losing you

and i know it hasn’t been too long now

but i am afraid the more i see you

the more i let you in

and the more i let go

you will disappear just like they all did

just like i thought you would

and i will sit here watching the stars alone

and still be terrified

but thats the thing about love isn’t it?

you don’t know what will happen

and it is goddamn terrifying

but you have to love as much as you can

and not waste a second of time not loving

so instead i will let go

and let you in

and maybe this time, you’ll stay here with me, under the stars

and catch me when i fall